Revolting...

2011-01-15T02:20:00.000-08:00

Dusting off my keyboard and getting back into the blogging business.

Hope y'all didin't miss me too much!

Ms. Sugar

xxxo

Fable 3 Review

2010-11-06T01:36:00.000-07:00

You can find the original posting at GeekThugRadio.com

Now because I hearted Fable 2 I would absolutely love to give the third installment a glowing, over the top review. BUT because of said hearting of F2 I simply can't! Change is good but I'd like to hear the complaints about 2 that caused the changes to 3! Where's the wheel o' emotions? No inventory to scope out? And for the love of Pete what is with the Simon-esq way you do jobs? Yellow, green, green, blue? Enough with the comparisons and let's get down to the nitty gritty. Want an easy to play, rich looking, sand boxy RPG? Get this game but don't expect a meaty story line or a lengthy amount of gameplay. Personally I beat this game in two days and that was stretching it. If you didn't know better you could sit there and breeze through the entire thing after becoming Queen or King without needing to do anything more than run between your throne room and treasury. I tried to take on side quests to boost my XP, or "Guild Shields" as they're called just to max out my magic, melee & ranged weapons. Honestly I don't think I needed to since I whopped that ass in the final battle, keeping most of my health potions and food unconsumed. My initial excitement has now waned into a slack jawed contempt all the while thinking, "No, this can't be it!". I realized with only two main quests open (finding books and shooting gnomes) that the game is over. Sure, I can play courier and wind my way through the hills and valleys, fighting balverines/mercenaries/hollowmen but that gets extremely boring and burdensome rather quickly. If this series is extended past the trilogy I'm not sure I'll be as quick on the draw as I was with this title, but I will still play it. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place with the knowledge that games will be revamped for new titles in the series but also expecting more of the same, because that's what made me a fan in the first place.

The Delicate Art of Getting Off

2010-09-21T02:20:00.000-07:00

My name is Sugar Lee and I like to masturbate.

That's right I buff the beaver, pet the kitty, tease my twat, jill off, double-click the mouse, polish the pearl, fluff my muff, mine the hole, push my love button, tickle my fancy, play my clitar, juice the clam, flick the bean, tip toe through the two lips....you get the point, right?

Yes, it is as hot as you're imagining right now. I'm usually bottomless with my boobs out and then I'll lay back and spread my legs & reach for my nearest vibrator. This is a routine I've become accustom in my single, sexually frustrated, sinless existence. It's really not as bad as it seems! I don't have to shave for my battery operated lover, there's no need to schedule a romp with my toys and the best part is I can have variety. Any size, color, length, and width is mine to have, when and how I want it!

Want to know what kind of heat I'm packing?

Just like Ernie I keep a Rubber Duckie in my shower but unlike Ernie's buoyant buddy mine vibrates! I adore it since it's handy for those days where I want to get clean while having some dirty fun all at the same time! When that beak of his puts in work and I go weak in the knees I step out of the shower with a huge grin on my face and a little more pep in my step! I opted for a purple and pink version instead of the traditional yellow in hopes to keep somethings from my childhood sacred.

Thanks to HBO's Sex in the City everyone knows what a Rabbit vibrator is. I'm a gadget girl, so of course I couldn't wait to have one in my lingerie drawer! I I can rotate the shaft to the right or to the left all why a cute little bunny buzzes on my clit with it's ears. Now, I'm a simple gal when it comes to getting off I don't need fancy bells & whistles! My Rabbit does the job but there are times where it feels a bit cumbersome and awkward and then of course there's the little issue of me...um...clenching down...and...err....stopping the rotation of the dick. I'm pretty hard on my toys but I feel like She-Hulk when I grip down and stop a vibrator from vibing! The one I got last year finally died on me earlier this week and I'm super bummed. It was inevitable since I go through toys like tissues during cold season but it was so unexpected I don't have any back-ups! I'm currently on the hunt for something new and it probably won't be another Rabbit, if anything I'll go back to the long bullet shaped vibrators.

Boi-oi-oi-oi-ing

Now for super special occasions I bust out this bad boy. It's top shelf because it fucking hurts! I'll be wetter than the ocean but I just don't stretch in certain places! A night with this silicone stud and I'll wake up the next morning sore as shit and feeling like I had actual date! Although the girth is a little more than I normally like the length is great and perfect for deep penetration which gets me off every time! I've doubled teamed and used my Rubber Duckie in conjunction with riding this one while it's suctioned cupped to to shower floor. What can I say? I love getting clean!

And now I'm back to searching Vibrator.com for my latest vibrator. Like I said earlier I'm more than likely headed back to the regular vibes or even a pocket rocket. Hopefully whatever I get will have a little more staying power than a year because I really don't want to go back to the days of handling myself manually! Don't get me wrong I will if I have to (and tonight I may just have to!) it's just cooler to have some little machine touch you in all the right places!

Be back in a week!

2010-08-21T16:42:00.000-07:00

I'm on vacation y'all!

1337

2010-08-13T13:36:00.000-07:00

I finally found my DS charger so now it's ON! Animal Crossing FTW!

Taking Over!

2010-08-11T22:34:00.001-07:00

Something so amazing happened this past week that it made me cry. Yeah, I'll say it again! I cried! Obviously it had to be something earth shattering to get these eyes all misty and it was! This moment is forever seared into my memory and I'll tell the story to anyone who will listen.

If y'all didn't know MTV had a contest for their first "MTV Twitter Jockey" or "TJ". I jumped on the bandwagon about the time the TJ hopefuls were whittled down to 5, (thanks in part to all my lovely size positive ladies I follow on Twitter) and was instantly a @GabiFresh fan. Not only is she gorgeous and intelligent, she writes a blog called Young, Fat, & Fabulous. Her blog proves without a doubt that no matter what size you are you can look amazing! Soberiously check out her fashion videos she did for Vogue! YES FOR VOGUE! Her style is very far from my rockabilly-esque fashion plate that I've refined in the last few year but I want to wear what she's wearing because it looks good! I mean that's what's all about anyways right? You look good and thusly you feel good, the sun shines a bit brighter and all is well in the universe. In a flash I was inspired to go shopping, which really doesn't take much, and try this new style out. This isn't a fatshion post mainly because I haven't found anything that has tickled my fancy and besides I'm pretty sure you're interested in what me all sad face.

After an intense showdown between the other 4 contestants Ms. Gabi won. Honestly after the first 3 rounds I was pretty confident that she had the whole thing the bag anyways buuuut you know you never know! When Sway called her named I screamed and lost it! I was flipping out like I just got a job at MTV, I'm talking Kleenex and nose blowing flipping out! When I look at Gabi I see someone who looks like me and it's a gentle nudge in my side saying, "See if she can do it you sure as shit can too!" She has given fat girls a extremely public face and therefore a voice so we can band together, link chubby arm to chubby arm and say, "Yes, we're fat but hot damn don't we look good?" It is our turn to stake our claim with a "FAT IS WHERE IT'S AT" flag and stick it right in the front lawn of popular culture!

She is what the up and coming MTV generation needs because they're being drowned in Snookis and Heidis. If mainstream media showcases strong, beautiful & full figured women maybe young girls will have someone to admire and then won't have as many body issues. Speaking from experience I know that I would have been one of those admiring girls. I grew up feeling lost and had to hack and slash my way through and urban jungle to get where I am today. What I wouldn't have given to have had a fatshion guru! I'm not so naive as to think it's all going to change with one person and I'm most certainly not saying she's going to be a magic cure all but it's a start and when there's a start there's change. I do wish Ms. Gabi the best of luck in the upcoming year and I can't wait to see the positive impact that she'll make.

You do NOT know the power of the Dark Side

2010-07-29T19:11:00.000-07:00

So if you don't know I'm a n3rd. That shit is in my blood y'all. My bio-parents played D&D (Dungeons & Dragons for you n00bs), did musical theater and watched Star Trek. Also when I was chillin in the womb my bio-mom saw Star Wars Ep. VI, which will tell you how old I am. I love that I've put in time playing D&D and Magic (I still have yet to play strip Magic...), did stints in Summer Stocks and wanted a Tribble for my birthday. I proudly push up glasses and adjust my invisible pocket protecter!

Still with me? Still interested?

Well out of everything I've grown up with Star Wars has to be closest to my heart. I read the Young Jedi Knights series in my teens and now I'm currently re-reading Timothy Zahn's Star Wars books (Thank you my tweetpea @DrewMega for jogging my memory). And though ALL the books & movies my favorite character of all is Darth Vader. Unlike Luke if he said he was my pops, I'd hop on board and rule the universe, maybe even get a hot pink lightsaber as a signing bonus! Strangely enough in my old age I've become increasingly attracted to Vader. Maybe it's the sleek, black uniform or maybe it's the way he's devastatingly ruthless. Ok, attracted is probably putting it mildly. Hmmm let's just say any boy in a Vader costume (it has to be at least movie quality, no garbage bags please) could get it BUT he'd have to leave the helmet on!

Whew ok, my panties are moist from just thinking about fogging up the window on a TIE fighter with Daddy Vader! So imagine the flood that occurred when I found out about the Vader Project, sadly I'm like 3 years behind and I missed the LA exhibit, but I digress. Basically 100 authentic Vader helmets were handed out to various artists and they created fantastical art. I mean breath taking, awe inspiring art. My catalogue is in the mail and I'll probably have to read it under plastic to keep it dry but I'd like to share some of my faves with y'all, since you stayed awake for this fangirl!

Tiki-ish inspired Vader

I love the roses on this one

Seriously? Pinup & Stormtroopers are love!

Konnichi-fucking-wa! I need this like I need a pair of wide Christian Louboutins!

Anyone want to buy me a helmet or two? I'd deeply appreciate it! And may the Force be with you!

Somebody to Love

2010-07-20T01:25:00.000-07:00

If you don't know the reference to this blog's title let me fill you in...because honey, you're missing out!

I'd like to think that this song strikes a chord with just about everyone. It's human nature just like it's human nature to want something sweet! Right now I'm uber scary hormonal e.g. PMS. It's when I turn into a super snatch ball one minute to feeling like my biological clock is winding down and I wanna have a baby like now! That was probably a little TMI but during this fun fest I just want what the song says! Who doesn't want to be wanted?

Yeah, this entry is short and sweet...kinda like me!

Drum roll please!

2010-07-11T23:27:00.000-07:00

After a lot of shit talking I finally have gotten around to posting those bathing suit pictures I eluded to in my first post. Yes, I know these pics have been sitting on my desktop for a few weeks but I had a good excuse!

Oh...you want to hear the excuse? Well, um....you see....

Ok, ok there was no excuse! I just haven't gotten around to it! So without further ado & meaningless fluff let's get onto the skin show!

For the record it's very hard for me to run to the other end of my room and pose.

And I wasn't about to take down my wonderful shoe rack behind me either!

However I suppose if you're commenting/complaining on my background then you're missing the point of this post. I haven't been in a bathing suit sans tshirt in at least 16 years. I put aside comfort and convience to hide what I should be proud of! Really swimming in a tshirt is cumbersome! Jump in a pool and you have the hem of your shirt floating right along with you, like a giant cotton jelly fish! I've said many times before that my body is just a 'meat sack' that holds in all the stuff that makes

me, me and this proves it.

I love this swimsuit! I got it from ModCloth.com after seeing it on Ms. Viola's blog! It's a Esther Williams suit and if you don't know of the fantastical Ms. Williams you can read about her here! Although I have yet to actually set a toe in any body of water, I am more than prepared to hit up a pool party! Granted I'd probably have my hair did, this means curled, shellacked & flowered and I'd ditch the flip flops to be in wedges but really, this suit demands I look fly! Like sippin' on fruity umbrella drinks and ordering around a cabana boy fly!

So there ya have it folks! Pictures as promised! I don't know why I was so apprehensive about these snap shots because I know somewhere in the mire of the interweb there are topless pictures of me. That is an entirely different blog entry that I'll save for a rainy day!

A Rose by Any Other Name....

2010-07-11T22:21:00.000-07:00

I've known since this blog's incepetion that I would end up touching on this somewhat sensitive subject. I just haven't figured out how to package it for you to read. I'm stumped and I hardly ever it get stumped! So enough hemmin' & hawin', I'll get right to it.

I'm fat & proud!

I'm not thick, round, chubby, fluffy, stout, plump, chunky, husky, rubenesque, zaftig, squishy, puffy or a BBW! Yes, in some circles and by some people's standards I could be any one (or two) of those aforementioned words but that's not what I like to call myself. I really don't like being called a BBW. For y'all out of the loop folks it stands for Big Beautiful Woman. I'm totally not trying to look a gift horse in the mouth, I mean come on there is the word beautiful in there! BBW just feels frumpy, bulky & old maid-ish! Can't you call me a Foxy Fat Female or better yet just call me a hot chick? Honestly I'm perfectly fine with being called fat in fact I embrace it! I embrace it because I'm finally happy with myself, that my insides are as wonderful as my outsides. Sure I wish my booty meat was bigger and my feet weren't so wide but that wouldn't do a damn thing to change my personality. Yes, it would make shoe shopping easier but hey, I like a challenge!

I understand that not every fat girl wants to or feels comfy with being called fat and that's ok! Personally 10 years ago I would have cringed at trying to define my body but that was the brainwashed Ms. Sugar! But now I like to own up to what my body is and what limitations it has, these limitations just keep me out of certain brands they don't keep me from looking fly! Let it be know that this *points to self* doesn't stop me from doing a damn thing, this *points to brain* however does! So if I think, "I can't do that cuz I'm fat" or "I shouldn't wear that it makes me look big", for one thing I'm lying to myself & unless I don a burqa at midnight I'm always going to look BIG! There is a fine (or should I say fat?) line that I walk where I want to be a member of fattie society to say, "Make some space for me!" but I don't want it to define me, I don't want it to be the only thing you see when you look at me. Am I sounding too broken record-y yet? All I know today is that my fat is a part of me whether you (mainstream society/media/fashion designers) like it or not. Never again will I be shamed into thinking I'm ugly because of my fat! It's mine and I have to look at it and dress it everyday so why shouldn't I love it?

I Wanna Sex ME Up!

2010-07-03T03:32:00.000-07:00

I watch a lot of porn. I believe everyone should take a gander at a skin flick every now and again. I probably spend about an hour a day perusing my favorite porn sites and spending quality time with myself. Why? Well, duh I love to bust a nut like any other red blooded American! Another reason for self loving is I'm not getting laid. The last person to finger me was my Gyno and that "date" left me high and dry! Now I know it must be hard for you (because it's not for me nyuk nyuk nyuk) to imagine me not being penetrated. I'm cute, witty, intelligent etc. so why the "Dick Drought"? Trust me I've been propositioned many, many times and as easy as it would be to say, "Yes!!!!!!" I'm saving myself. I don't feel like going into details on my self imposed celibacy so let's just keep it at: I have my eye on someone!

Ok, so back to my original claim of watching a metric shit ton of porn! What gets me off is watching the amateur home made shit! I do love me some mainstream porn every now and again but the stuff with only one camera angle and no fancy lighting gets my panties moist! A few weeks ago, I stumbled across a video so fantastic I couldn't even lay vibrator to snatch because I was awe struck! I have NEVER been so turned on by the man in a porn! Usually the guy is too busy stroking his ego instead of stroking his girl that I have to imagine some shit to get a-squirming!

Video via xxxnx.com

Tell me I'm right! Mama want! Apart from the slow fucking, grinding and tapping the part that got me was the kiss on the cheek! That curled my toes and arched my back like you wouldn't believe! I was immensely no, extremely jealous of the broad his was smashing because I haven't had sex like that in....*cricket...cricket* yeeeeeaah, it's been that long! So someone pass me a pack of AA batteries and close the blinds because this girl is in need of some quality alone time! I'll imagine I'm the girl and the guy I'm sweet on is old ground & pound over there! It'll have to do because I'm not seeing my beau anytime soon, but deep down (teehee) I know he's worth the long excruciating wait. Oh and he's gonna hit it like that, come Hell or high water!

At Last

2010-06-29T12:01:00.000-07:00

If you didn't already know I'm a big supporter of the LBGT community. I've skipped work to hit up parades, been yelled at by anti-gay protesters and even dreamed of being a dyke on a bike! I'd like to credit my parents for teaching me the values and the necessity of civil rights. Instilling in me the notion that people regardless of their sexuality are people and should be treated as such! I think it's extremely sad that in certain states gays can't marry. It heralds us back to the day when it was illegal to marry someone of a different skin color! I hear all the conservative feedback about how it breaks down society and family values yadda yadda yadda! I see it as love. So there's two cocks standing at the alter? So what? They're standing there for the same reason I stood next to a cock at the alter. BECAUSE OF LOVE! I truly believe that that notion is lost on many of the anti-gay marriage folks, many of whom take for granted they can rush out and get married willy nilly!

Now this story came to my attention via queerty.com and it touched my soul. For one they longevity of the relationship, which by the way is amazing in itself, and secondly they were gay in a time that is wasn't as acceptable as it is now. Anyone who objects to gay marriage needs to feast their eyes on the Declaration of Independence but with July 4th is looming its BBQ'd and M-80's head around the corner I'll throw this in, you know in the spirit of things.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness

So if your happiness is getting married and having 2.5 kids then pursue it! Want to stay single and surround yourself with cats? Pursue it! For these gentlemen they finally were granted the right to pursue their own happiness by getting married, 60 years after they met. The cynic in me did let out an "Aw" or two watching this.

I like pricks!

2010-06-06T13:25:00.000-07:00

Since I was 10 I knew I would have a tattoo. I fell in love with ink at of all places church! There was a woman a few pews ahead of me and as I glanced at her leg I saw a dainty rose tattoo adorning her ankle. I didn't get an up close look but I didn't need one. I knew what it was and I knew one day I would have my very own! After that momentous Sunday I kept my peepers peeled for anyone sporting ink. I'd stare at the lines and shading with admiration and plain old curiosity. Questions zipped and ideas swirled in my grey matter. When would I get my first tattoo? Better yet, how do you get one? How would my parents handle it? Was it going to hurt? I was bewitched by this ancient art form and fast forward 11 years I was hooked!

I got my first tattoo at the ripe old age of 21. That's right, I know usually people turn 18 and rush out to mark themselves with their new found independence from childhood. Not this kid! I wasn't worried to much about the pain by then because I figured if it hurt that bad people would stop getting them right? I was more concerned with what I would get. I wanted something that had a deep spiritual meaning and that in 30 years I'd still want on my body and yadda yadda yadda! So after much deliberation and scouring the Japanese dictionary I went out and got the character for daughter tattooed on my right upper back. In 45 minutes it was over! I did it! I joined the ranks of modified people across the world! I felt more connected with my body and my heritage. That was the beginning of the end for me and for my bank account!

So here I am, 24 tattoos later preparing for yet another 4+ hour session tomorrow to work on my Oni 1/2 sleeve. I'm not looking forward to the hours of pain but the end result is worth it. And that folks has become my outlook on life. I know in an instant life can go from butterflies and rainbows to daggers and skulls. I've even come to expect the pain but I don't let it hinder my experience on this earth. If I didn't know I was in a valley then I most certainly would not know when I was on a mountain.

This was my the first session on my Oni

It's MY body, I'll do what I want!

2010-06-04T03:43:00.000-07:00

I've tried hard to figure out what exactly what "message" I wanted to convey in this post. I was dizzy with going back and forth over what to discuss, dissect or debate. I was feeling the sophomore slump for serious. So instead of trying to impress with quantity I'm shooting for quality. I haven't forgotten the remark about being in a bathing suit and to prepare for the auspicious body break through, I'm going to slowly face my body hang ups. And so I present a few candid shots of my body parts that I'm trying to love more!

Testing the water here with an image I see all the time. Up until a few years ago I didn't like to wear shorts or short skirts because I thought my thighs were fat. Uh wake up call! I'm fat...so parts of my body are going to be covered in it! Also I live in a place that's hotter than fried fuck on a Friday (yes, I get wet for alliterations) so wearing next to nothing became a summer survival technique!

So here's my thigh. Sometimes when I'm bored and naked I like to smush parts of my thigh together so I can see cellulite! I do sleep better at night knowing that Kim Kardashian sweats her 'lite and I don't have any it's petty I know, but let me have my tiny victory over her!

My vital signs appear to be at normal levels so I'll continue....

Well, well it's a tummy roll! An actual part of my gut on the internet for people to see? That's right! I pinched it up, ghetto nails and all! That right there, mentally held me back. It stopped me from hitting on the cute guy at the bar or wearing a top that was a wee bit tight. I wore baggy hoodies to hide in because I mistakenly thought that extra fabric would make me invisible. What I hold between my fingers is so insignificant to my core being but yet I let it have sovereignty! My brain, soul and heart are what you should care about, don't get me wrong I'm hella pretty BUT looks & stretch marks fade, my character won't.

Ok, so I'm feeling empowered and in charge of my body. I'm about to show a part of my body that only my ex's and doctors have seen. Deep breath!

KAPOW!

How do you feel about that ladies and gentlemen? Are you running away in terror, screaming your head off at the mere sight of my fat? If you are please build a bridge and kindly get the fuck over it! What you see before you is just a meat sack that holds all my good stuff. If you let these pictures determine if I'm worthy of your time, I don't need you in my life. Please see your superficial ass to the nearest exit and don't let the door hit ya, where the good Lord split ya!

That wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be! I'm that much closer y'all to busting out in the suit! I have heels picked out for it already! I realize I'm not perfect nor do I want to be but I'm tired of feeling bad because I weigh over 200lbs. Like Cartman says, "It's my body! I'll do what I want!"

Let me explain

2010-05-29T01:14:00.000-07:00

The Dictionary describes the word revolting like this:

revolting (adjective)

1. disgusting; repulsive

2. rebellious

Hmmm this fits my mission statement to a T! Now I'm not setting out to be deliberately disgusting but topics I'm bound to cover may make some people squirm in their seats. The rebellious thing I've been doing since the early 80's and I got that down no problem. Wait, you want more clarification on the "disgusting" before you cosign? Grab a doughnut and listen up!

I pulled a little S&S last night, that's shower & smoke. I smoke marijuana (which was legally obtained from a Medical Cannabis club via my Medical Cannabis card) and take a shower. It helps me relax and focus (sometimes unfocus) on things in my life. My hygienic respite allowed me to lazily drift onto the new chapter in self love. No, I didn't learn another way to masturbate although if any of you have any suggestions feel free to email them to me! I'm finally learning to love all the parts of me that I kept hidden in shadows. The parts that get squeezed, squashed, mashed and suffocated in my past vain attempts to fit in and be wanted. Those negative poisonous thoughts have been banished to the far reaches of my brain never to return again! Well I'm not that blissfully ignorant but it sounds good right?

A miraculous body image break though happened! Go tell it on the mountain, the bakery down the street and my gym! I've been waiting to be this in love with my body since puberty punched me in the throat and took over or maybe it was the moment I realized I wasn't ever going to be the lithe ballerina I knew I was or maybe it was when I felt like an Amazon standing next to my friends in high school. I could find a million and one moments where I felt ugly, fat (and by fat I mean fatter than I normally am) unloved, and like an outsider. But those where moments where I was brainwashed into foolishly believing that I wasn't perfect just the way I am.

So I plan on being revolting (as in gross if you're not on board with fatties) and revolting (uprising against the media's ideal of what "beauty" is)! I know I'm going to take FULL body shots of me in a bathing suit and post them here. I know I'm going to loose weight and boast about it here and on the flip side I'll more than likely gain weight and boast/gripe about it here. This is my own personal struggle and triumph of living in a image obsessed world and how I deal with it and thumb my nose at it. You're more than welcome to come along and join me!